make it an everyday thing

WOW ! 2nd entry in a month !

Alright , just trying to have some fun while doing OT at work . How annoying

I got a phone call yesterday , this someone call me for a talk .

He was telling me how different he felt from his peers .
Apparently, he just went to attend his friend farewell party and when he was there he meet up with his group of JCs friends .
Because he is in a private Uni and a very active christian life makes him very different from his peers.
Most of his guy friend just step in to uni and his girl friends are in their last year .
Everyone all there are talking about all the activities they do in uni and whatever ... he was so quiet unable to relate to what they were talking about .

Poor boy , how sad .

But i'm actually happy for you , I felt that it's time for you to think and find out what you really want and to not afraid to be different .
To overcome this he has to be sure about what he is doing and to have confident in it . Never think that you aren't as good as them . It is good that you felt that way , i hope these peer pressure will bring you forward . 

 

My post comes in once a month nowadays well sometimes i missed it .
It's becoming more and more like my menes =)

I LOVE FACEBOOK , FRIENDS FINDER ! 
Through then i found my long lost primary school mate sheena ! how amazing !

I used to study in damai Primary school , which is located in the east .
I then transferred school when i was Primary as my whole family moved to the west .
Since then i keep in close contact with sheena via phone and occassionally stay over at her place =)
It was truly unforgettable as it will take me super long to get to her place and also the first time traveling so far without my parents =)

I remember the days in primary when we were still young and innocent , we played thing like , The" i dont friend you game =)"
Very often children like to say i dont friend yuou and then friend her again before going back to sch =) haha
Well , my friends seems to dont friend me very often , but sheena my besties then ALWAYS FRIEND ME !!!
Love love her =)
At the same time she was always been the little girl with pretty features and stylish looking =)

Proud to have a kind and stylish friend back again =)

happiness =)

when i was just a little girl i ask my auntie what will i be ?
will i be pretty ?
will i be slim ?
that's what she says to me ?

hey qin qin , qin qin , qin qin

whatever will be will be ? the future not us to see hey qin qin qin qin  
what will be will be .   

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indeed future not us to see , only God knows the future .
only by holding onto God will i have peace knowing that my future are in God's hand  .

will relationship change over the years ? of cos , no doubt it will .
my family will not change though i know they will miss me ALOT ,  what about my boyfriend ?
We will be dating for a year from nov 08 to jan 2010 . will 1 year of foundation be able to support 3 years of separation ?
we cant .
I dont know what to expect for the separation . 
Everyone is trying to mentally prepare us for the things to expect , isn't it ridiculous ? 
i DO NOT believe we can do anything now to guarantee a safe seperation  for the next 3 years .

What do we have left ?

God

(We as heartless human being will only rememer or turn to god when we need help . )

Only by buliding a firm relationship bewteen god and us , will we have hope for  the future .

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when i ask him , will you still want me if i gain 10 more kg
he say yes ...... but try not to lah , you wont want to gain so much weight right ?
gosh ! he should just stop at the yes , and tat will be perfect . haha .

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For addison's church best friends
I'm sorry if i have been occupying most of his time . very sorry about it .
All the misunderstanding please let it pass .
Addison needs you guys to be around when he is lonely and needs a pair of listening ears .
mh , bc and pris i do not have anything for you , but  you guys will be the best childhood friend one can ever have and yuou are already storing treasures in heaven . 

I'm sorry that that i didnt got a chance to ask you individually , because i know i'm not in a position to ask for any favour from you . just putting these down , so by any chance if you get to see this is really just pure luck  . a million  

I doubt i can .

I'm sad to admit that i have been a very ignorance child .
To squeeze out my father from my limited understanding would be , 

He loves to eat  .As he is always very engross with his food and he eats with sound . haha , like "oos oos "
When my sis and I were younger , every saturday he will bring us all over singapore to get good food =) Sadly , we don't know how to appreciate the food but now when i think about it ny dad shares what he likes will us . Despite knowing how troublesome it is to bring 2 disobedience kids around .

My daddy loves the family =) 
He is always home late but on time when giving out allowance . For he so love the family he start venturing in business , wanting to giving us better living , in the end he got himself bankrupt and in debts .
I hate to admit that i treat my dad as a loser whenever he got into such trouble . Think about the things i have said to him in the past  brings back so many sad memories .My mouth was like a knife that pierce right into his heart .  Yet until today he did not mention those nasty stuff i have said , I couldn't imagine how painfully it was to meant the broken heart .Because he loves us , he is still hang on till now =)
He is my amazing daddy =)

My daddy is handsome =)
He is my first boyfriend =) my mum gets jealous with us at times because she things we took our dad's attention away from her ,haha . 
Whenever , i ask my dad for opinion on my dress he will say , my daughter looks good on any thing =)
He is also very protective towards my sis and i , gets worried when we are home late and question us on the guys we hangout with . 
Proud to have him as my first love ? actually not , haha . 

In Exodus 20:12 
Honor you father your mother , so that you may live long in the land of Lord your God is giving you . 

In Colossians  3:20
Children , obey your parents in everything for these pleases the Lord .

In Ephesians 6:1
Children ,obey your parents in the lord, for this is right.
2."Honor your father and your mother " which is the first commandment with a promise 
3 That it may go well with you and that you may enjoy  long life on the earth .

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This father's day I failed to give the initial gift i wanted to give .
Which is the Gift of God's love .
The best present one can ever get on earth .

Maybe the time has yet come for him to listen or even accept .
God has his own time , heavenly father i will continue to pray .
Please touch my daddy's heart soon . 

I love my daddy
and
i will learn to love and understand him more =)

God's word moves mountain , including me and boyfriend .

you have planned to make up a good dinner for your boyfriend
and so you arranged to leave work half an hour earlier to prepare .
then when you tell him about this 
he explain that he will wait till the car is available then he drive down to your place , therefore he might miss the dinner . 

Well , it's fair right ? i mean it's more convenient if he has got a car to drive back . 

Then you agree with him =)

..........

the next day 
 you casually ask 

you: Hi , boyfriend =) what are you doing ? miss me ?
bf: of cos i do , i miss you all the time ! i'm watching a movie at home , then going out for dinner with my friend.
you : dinner ? i thought you were tired to take publis transport ? now you are telling me you are going to town to eat with your friends . 
 .................

maybe my cooking is horrible . 
* let out a sign ...



 

i will be away .

The panic struck yesterday .
too soon ? not at all !
God knows me well , he is preparing me for next year .

i just came back from holiday , and i'm very determine to save up for my studies next year .
This motivation keeps reminded . 
The feeling of missing all the usual things i do , the company i used to have . 
The choir practice that i haven get sick of , same goes for the bible study days and the convenience of calling and meeting my friends out as and when .  

Coincidentally , i was singing a song on how youth shouldnt let the days slip away
Why am i going to study , why i want to go explore , why am i going away .

Because i want to be a more competent nurse , i want to gain experience , i want to learn .
will continue to ave this in mind . Nothing will change unless God has got another plan for me.

*** to my boyfriend , hard on you . i'm sorry .
      please wait for me =)
with love julyn =)

my boyfriend's blog

He is a gift from God to me !
I Pray that we will continue to work hand in hand to serve Lord =)
So far it has been an amazing journey =)

Jia you all my bro and sis in christ ! our reward is in heaven =) Amen !

right in my face ! goodness , i got so much tanning . i guess i am as tan as how i used to be 3 years ago all thanks to kayaking =)
been to japan quite a number of times , but my first time to tokyo city .
Well , i had a pleasant stay in town and i love the food there , all the food ! i'm dead serious i eat like 4 to 5 meals a day .
Tokyo is very much like singapore , except it''s more expensive , therefore nothing much surprise me .
I enjoy hakone very very very very much ! super holiday !
3 days was just enough to see most things there .
in hakone you get to enjoy the beauty of nature from the mountain especially the MT FUJI !!!
it's my first time seeing the MT Fuji , AMAZING !
i simply cant denial the the breath taking part when you just stand in the cool wind to enjoy the view .

will continue to update when i'm back =) love

only have 20 mins to serve the net !!!
annoyed

Taking off to japan today !
Cant wait to go enjoy the scent of the spring .
I can almost feel it gushing in to my nostrils =)
The image of having afternoon tea in the garden watching the sakura slowly falling on to my face and blouse , the blissful feeling comes right now =)
As the wind blow and just the right temperature i want to be dressed in my comfy clothes and walking down the busy street of tokyo.
Be soaked in the onsen on a lazy afternoon with be the most desired activity .
The trill of having sashimi straight from the fish market , is going to be my very first time !
What is best for dessert in spring will still be a question mark to me till i'm there to experience !
My God loves me =)
May the lord bless me a safe journey and one full of good memories =)

The sudden switch of temperature , from spring to summer , from tokyo to phuket.
from cooling sweater to bikini on beach !!!!
With my silliest boyfriend and his bunch of band mates =)
love band people they should be the craziest people you YOU should hang out with .
wind surfing , thai boxing , beach volley ball ...and a whale of fun will be waiting for us all. 
wearing big straw hat having a cooling tropical punch , yummy !!!! 

i love 2009 =)

julyn 

Felt very much the same .
I will miss you boyfriend =)

i guess it's going to be very much like backpacking this time round  and i believe i'm going to have a whale of a time there =)
love being free from all things , in the sense i dont have tell or inform anyone where i'm going and i get to plan my trip =)
First i  will dig out the bicycle i used to have and carry it back to where i'm going to stay for the rest of the trip =)
then cycle down the road ,go for a stroll in the park sit by the lake , make new friends =)

yea , i'm going to enjoy =)

Now i'm beginning to feel the excitement =)
 

bollywood veggi rocks !!!!

a comfortable place to hang out no a sunny day , provided if you dont mind the sun . 

location , thoug h not as easy to spot as we thought  , it wasnt too tough too . 
it's at 100 neo tiewroad . 
we were driving at the rims of singapore and we were drove through the kranji dam where can see the straits of johor .  From  kranji drive , kranji way down the neo tiew road till we reach the veggi farm , it's about 15 mins . We also went passed alot of veggi farm and hayden goat farm . 
Till we see a decent signboard , BOLLYWOOD VEGGI . 

We first head to the toilet , urgent !!! haha
very shaddy toilet 
 
then we were direct to a the farm visit . entrance fees of 2 SGD per head of which i was not told .
Well , we still went ahead .
they provide a piece of map to direct you on the walkable areas =)

there lots of interesting fruit that i have never heard of , things like breadfruit , cat whisper ( flowere ) many many more ...
A lake / pond and seats around for rest , and a shadddy place for the old and sun forbia people =)

Fun continues ..

we then rest at the bollywood cafe .
we had papaya salad , lemongrass tea and aloe vera for a short tea break .
brought back  banana muffin .

BANANA MUFFIN WAS SUPER !!!
It was a pity that there isn't wide variety of products for us to buy .

Therefore we procced to qian fu organic farm to get the veggi !!!
I was totally excited , * guess i just need to spend
brought all the organic veggi and fruit which in total cost me 27  bucks nad i would say it's totlly worth it !!!
it's so fresh and friendly to the body !!

will definitely visit there again !!!

riding a bus was never so tiring .
i waited for the bus for 15 mins , that's fine
from the stop i board to the stop before expree way is about 4 bus stop away .
on the big sunny day it takes the bus 7 mins to hit the high way . 
just this morning it takes 20 mins to do so . 
dont let me babble about the kia-su office boy and aunt .
in general everyone is squeezing in the bus as if it's the last bus of the day , when the bus comes every 5 mins . 

At the time when i board the bus , i got a nice comfortable standing space , by the next stop passengers are already standing on the steps . can you imagine the torture i have to go through for the subsequence stops . 

the express way robbed away 30 mins of my time . 
my time isn't expensive not that i have alot . 
just that being in the bus , facing all the frowning people , people with bushing curly hair , people with unpleasant smell . 
all kinds .  

I cant ease the jam by being angry , basically i just got to be patience .
But i get bored very bored . 
so bored that i need to stretch , so bored that i need to get out , so bored that my headis spinning .
i whisper quietly to myself , hang on there julyn !

i sing to kick off the the boredom . 
call my boyfriend even when i know he is sleep =) i'm a very mean girlfriend . 
-talking him doesn't make diff , probably worst !!
screaming in my mind !

till now i'm still having headache , therefore not going to continue the nag . bye
 

A greeting learn on sunday .

Confession of my greatest sin .
No control of spending . 

i have started working for 5 mths 
And i have yet save a single cents . 
sob ...

looking back at what i have spent 
i don't know 
Question to ask 
- did i shopped my money away ( not exactly )
- did i spent money on expensive food all the time ( not exactly )

THEN WHERE ? 
 
aaaahhh ...

MAYBE JAPAN TRIP( 2.5 k at least ) ,
no more grandfather no more sponser .
RIP grand-daddy .


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Not in order

tang yuan
strawberry
wan wan rice craker
sunflower bread
balloons

choir ytd .

we didnt practise at all .
we were all called back to write a song .
goodness. How i wish i was born a writter

no song no home .
NO HOME !!!!! NO WAY !!!!!!!!!!

wrote 1 within 5 mins .
haha
fastest ever .

then realised my aunt and my sis and my boyfriend craking their brain still .

silly me . i still cant go back till  they are done .

went down to play soccer , then realised the horrible weather .
Was trapped in air-condition room the whole day , didnt realised how terrible it was .

posting this entry to lighten the mood =)

good day pals =)

God has forgiven everyone
all of us who sin against him.

the entry before was an apology .

Pardon me for my terrible english .

with tears in my eyes , i'm sorry . emily .

is a comfort , at least you feel something about it .
It applies , i felt terrible when you gave such a remark .

i treasure this friendship we share and i am very thankful to have you , emily  ,to have such a friend in my life is a blessing .
Therefore , i do not agree to what you just say , that i devalue or deprciating the friendship . 

I really sorry that i have to throw my feels in my journal , because i dont even know anyone who diligently reads it . 
i can hardly rememb how i feel when i was typing that entry . 
but i can clearly remember  how much sadness i was in when you said that . 
Till now , i'm fine .not because i dont care . it's because i want to continue with this friendship even after the pain . 
i believe by doing so we can all forget about what has happened . 
You msg me and i reply , just like how we did before . 
i have passed that feeling . 

Now i would like to apologies that what you sayon my journal lakes you so uncomfortable, because i dont understand you well enough . 
On this earth only God really understand whom someone really is and i'm sorry for not being too sensitive about what you said . 

i decide to reply you on my blog because i need space to explain myself , i hope you will be reading it soon . I will contine to keep you in my prays just as before .
until you read this entry,  my throat will continue to be choked with a fish ball .  

It's the beginning of life again !!!
i'm always looking forward to how much things i can do after work .
Trying to squeeze cooking , washing , evening walk , QT with Bf , facial if possible , nice warm bath within 4 hours .
I actually i working rate at the clinic is slower than how i run my life .
Totally opposite . not what i want .

Nevermind qin qin , it's ok hang on for the next 10 months . The time will come , when i can have time for myself =)

Thankful that , no matter where i am i am spending time with god =) Amen