make it an everyday thing

a true friend knows the song of your heart.
if you were to forget it someday, she will sing the song back to you.

marching into November i rejoice and ponder.

Rejoice for everything from the very beginning, now and ever more. For my heavenly father has been faithful to me, keeping me close to him, for my ever wandering heart. Can never imagine a moment without him. When i say "I live for God everyday !" , the subject isn't me, it's God ! God make my everyday, accompanied me through the darkest hour and days i jump in joy.
How should i live my life to glorify him, HOW can i ever honour him ENOUGH ?

Being a vocalist, worship leader and other church ministry, do i really understand what is worship ? I wouldn't dare to say i have full grasp the idea of it. However, throughout the years of training and experiences with God i define worship as a way of life by acting out what you have read/ learn from the bible and the songs you sing in church. Take note of the second half of the sentence, many of us define/ understand worship as a way of life, on how we honour God. Work, Walk, Sleep, Eat, School, Family, BGR, Friendship, personal thoughts , did we circle them individually ?

I start dating at the age of 14, alan is my first boyfriend, he is a all rounder. Basket ball captain, top 3 in class, monitor of his class, well groom, very driven in life and a great boyfriend! To me he is the best thing that has happened to me, the only thing is that he isnt a christian. At the point of time i was already a worship leader, serving in a mission choir and evangelizing. I tell God " father, i have given you so much of me please leave my love relationship alone." it was some what along that line. By the end of 2yr6mths, we come to a point of dead road, i kept praying, God is that what you really want ? to choose between God and my Bf ? I may not be able to explain well enough but the situation is, i am still in love with him and deeply in love with God. I find it a hinder for me to go closer to God being in a relationship with him. In the end i choose God.

Looking back i realised it's impossible to praise and worship him if I dont include him in every single way of my life. IMMPOSSIBLE. if you can i would say you arent worshiping, becasue worship is a package. You got to put all of you (Work, Walk, Sleep, Eat, School, Family, BGR, Friendship, personal thoughts ) in the circle of God. The fact is I didnt do it alone, God did it for me when i surrender to him totally.

Now STOP and listen to what God wants you to give in to him, so that you can go closer to him. Sing and think of what you sang, Read and ponder what you read, Preach and reflect on what you are telling others. Remember worship is a way of life by acting out what you sing, read and say.

When you asking why do we need to worship?
I say i worship is an action or respond to God's love for me and us.

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness.
Opened my eyes, let me see.
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
Oh, so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came
To the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy,
Altogether wonderful to me

amen

I just had a very drama night ! Cant believe what actually happen last night !

I have got an assignmnent due today at 5p.m and i only start to brainstorm it 2 days ago, bad move.
During this period of time i'm also doing my placement from 830 to 5pm at sunshine hospital. Imagine how tired you are after work and how much you just want to stuck your lazy body onto the sofa in front of your television. Therefore, i kept procrastinating my work till yesterday since then my head has been stuck in front of my laptop squeezing every single bits i have in my tiny brain. I couldn't absorb any thing i read, no information was retain! The break down starts from 12 midnight, where my head starts to feel heavy and I could feel my dinner migrating up from my stomach. The nausea and discomfort got so great that i had to run to the toilet and throw out whatever i had. This experience is worst than being sick, at least when you are sick your brain will just tell you to rest. But last night was a tough battle between the mental and physical weakness.

I have never been a night owl, studying or working past 12 midnight, as much as possible it hasnt happen in the past 10 years. The craziest thing is that during my night shift clinical placement at NUH i always get to sleep, HAHA, i have always had a peaceful night =) what ever it is, i just couldnt understand why was i feeling all the withdrawal syndrome last night, when i can party, dance, surf the net, talk on the phone or simply hangout past 12 but i couldnt work after12 !!!

Has my life become too comfortable ?
Are these pre-assignments anxiety attack ?

Still cant believe what happen last night when i woke up feeling perfectly fine!

As i was missing all the chinese christian songs i used to sing, i open up the file that stores all the ppt of the songs =) enjoying every song and recalling every single ones, until this particular song came by...

it was in chinese but addi and i figured out we prefer the english version of it and so i youtube it.

I don't know about tomorrow,
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from it's sunshine,
For it's skies may turn to gray.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said,
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

 

Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

Ev'ry step is getting brighter,
As the golden stairs I climb;
Ev'ry burden's getting lighter;
Ev'ry cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eyes,
At the ending of the rainbow,
Where the mountains touch the sky.

 

Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

To find rest and faith in the Lord for he holds tomorrow.
Many times we fail to do so, we find assurance from the world instead of God.
I have been thinking what is going to happen next year because i'm going to graduate this year and got to decide and plan either to continue to stay on in australia to work or go back to singapore.

Many reasons why i should stay in melbourne and many reason why i should go back to singapore. I can't decide, only God can tell me what i should do and where should i go.
My friend don't be afraid or stressed up over tomorrow just remember God will hold your hand and guide you to your tomorrow.
God alone never disappoint people and God has hold my hands to many tomorrows of mine.

i miss my friends in singapore very much but i always tell myself as long as we all hold on to God and  stay close to him we will never be apart. In christ we are one big family and nothing can break this bond that we share.
Everything on this earth will go away only God's word and his kingdom last forever. Therefore, hold on yo God for he is your only security and he is all you need.

We are saved by faith.

The faith that we have is not from us, it's from God .

How amazing My God ,the one who has brought me this far !

I don't want to cease my worship for him . As i settle in a whole new church i am still who i am , and the relationship between my God and I still remains .

I miss my boyfriend but i always pray to God and after telling him , God fill me and the misses for addison is being relieved . I believe God will make a path for us though it seems clouded now .

But the misses for my grandma is teary and very longing . i want to see her . It hurts even more if i were to call her and hear her cry when she listen to my voice . if i dont call her i would see her photo and cry alone . i miss your badly .

dear lord please find a way to fill me and to fill her with your love so that we can share a relationship with God , nainai and me .

plase pray for my nai nai's salvation and my misses for her =)
love

For the first time in my life , i do not have enough clothes to wear !
my parcel has yet arrived , i'm living with what i have got tee shirt and jeans and a decent jacket only to pull through any thing higher than 18 degrees .

I was in my school christian fellowship last week , i remember at the end of the whole session , they were asking for any prayer request .
It just struck me to ask God for a better weather anything above 20 degrees .
I did make myself sound really silly because it's obvious that it the beginning of autumn and melbourne is getting colder no matter what .
Oh well , we went ahead to pray for the weather . After which i told them this little story about a village and i goes by ....

this village in china were facing drought and everyone was devastated because almost all the villagers are farmers and this put their livelihood in danger. There is a church in this village and they all gather one night to pray for rain . As the pastor was praying and preaching he point out that there is a little girl sitting right at the back and said , this girl has got great faith !
Everyone turn their attention towards her . The pastor then point out that she is holding an umbrella. 
Because she believes that God listen to prayer even if it seems so impossible , she believes . Bring the umbrella is an act of faith . 
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they start teasing me that i should wear short and singlet to school because we should have faith
i remember it was thursday night that we prayed about it .

friday  passed , dont quite remember the weather then .Saturday arrived , it's hot and sunny ...and so is Sunday and Monday ,yesterday and today !
I am amazed ! totally amazed God's sensitivity with such a small prayer .

haha , surely i didnt act out my faith by wearing shorts and tank tops to school . And i also hope my parcel of clothes will come soon !
will continue to pray for good weather till my winter clothes arrived ! love you my friends !

And i Love my God =) halleluyah , praise the LOrd ! amen

just cant help but i really need to talk about the people here !

Susan first , the most outgoing mother of 2 , the previous tenant of the apartment i'm staying at currently.
She keep the house for us instead of her close friend just because she casually agree to it 6 months ago .
She help us kick a start in this Melbourne foreign land , brought us tram tickets and deal with the transferring of membership the apartment , the electrical and water bills ....etc ... so much more .She even teach us hw to save the water and electrical bills , which was extremely useful.
Brought us for dinner with her friends at a very interesting restaurant. Introducing us friend whom we can look for when we need help .
Her strength and determination in her life amazed us and remind us in many ways.
I hope the best for her and may she get her PR asap .

Taher is my orientation host , he is super cute and helpful . Though the first time he brought us to the city tour and got us lost and late for dinner , he maintain his patience with this complaining group and the smile on his face. H is indeed very active in school see him in school everyday and wherever we go , haha .
he is currently holding my laptop , as my laptop crashed last night . i was so panicked that i could hardly sleep , really . i kept praying and hope God will heal the laptop . the first time i do when i woke up was to on my laptop hoping that the viruses would be gone , sadly it got worst .
Head to the school for help , it was invain . Then i call taher , he was in agreeing to help me and came down to school personally to do so .
with no resouce he provide with what he has got and assure me that my laptop will be fine =)
I really thank god for that , even though it's not fixed yet , i am already thankful for the help provided

then christelle and cansu, i love them ! they are so cute !
christelle is from france , my future french tutor. she is so lovely and extremely nice =) always very happy and very smart !
i would say she is very mature for a 20 yrs old girl =)
i love hanging out with her and be better friends

cansu , always partying and always looking for cute guys ! haha
she is so funny , i enjoy her accompany and she makes almost all things fun .
we have lots of things in common , likes eating ice cream , berries and waffles =)
painting nails and put on eye shadows . haha

thankful for the people God puts in my life =)

I have arrived on 16 of feb =)
I hate taking plane , they are always so uncomfortable .
Therefore let's skip the flight and jump into melbourne airport.

17 degree when i touch down , put on my jacket and head to the immigration .
It was a long walk there and extremely tired because of our very very heavy handcarry !
as i was walking i kept praying that my luggage will still be in a piece .

At belt 5 i took my luggage and fortunately it was still good and intact , i thank God for that .
Head to the custom clearance, emily has so anxious that we will be ask to open our luggage .
To my surprise the officer there were really friendly and when they heard that we are an international student they put up a smile and wish us the best in our studies .

After much worries , we finally got out of the airport and head to our apartment.
About 20 mins journey , 62 AUD .
We were kinda stuck when we are moving our luggage up the apartment , because they were so overweight , it was a super funny scene.

Susan , the tenant of the apartment was there to welcome us and to settle the transferring of tentantship of this apartment .She keep nagging that we brought gold bar in our luggage . haha

Susan was really angel God sent , she keep this apartment for us , keep it clean and tidy. She even brought us the tram ticket and  help us understand how the tram ticket works .That was not all , she left us the pots and pans, food , printer and rice cooker and charge us very very  little for those . She is really an angel .

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I had alot of my first time here , it was totally overwhelmed that . Things like opening a bank account , apply internet , change the electricity company for our apartment usage , applying a very complicated phone line and many many more . 
Those were more troublesome than registering with the sch and going for orientation . The feeling is really weird , i would say we handle that very well but the amount of money involve was alot .I just need to be very judicious with my funds now as i believe i was too easy with it .

With all these trouble we obiviously skipped the orientation on 16 feb and only join the rest on 17 feb.

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Orientation is O week for us . 

There is one organized by the school and other by health science .We can choose to go for either and so we pick the interesting ones or
the more helpful ones . 
On 17 of feb , wed , we went for the school O , in the evening we head for the city tour =) 
The city tour is really fun as we meet the international student from all different countries .

The most attractive thing about mel city is that every single buildings or shopping centres are uniquely different . I totally fell in love with their architecture. 
The shopping mall looks nothing like the one in singapore .I really want to tell you more , but in the next entry =) 
Heading out to meet jacklyn =) 

love you my friends =)

 
 

Holding back for 2010 .

I have always been looking forward to the opportunity for further studies , well this is it . 2010 15 feb i am leaving .
i am excited , looking forward and very postive about this year's life .
Skip the preparations , the visa applications , the registeration of school , looking for apartments, school fees, store up winter clothes .... etc...
Beacause , those i have mentions are headaches and totally boring .

After going through all the trouble , i am finally left with the last time to do , good byessss.

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December , we had a family chalet after 3 years break . It was so enjoyable .
The chalet is defintely more dirty then your own house , with very uncomfortable beds and lack of supply in all .
However , there is this one Great thing that fill the whole house , The Bond of the Family which appear to be love in actions .

I always remember what my grandmother says ,
" when i strike 4D/TOTO , i will buy big house and all of us will stay together . "
I always ignore her silly thoughts ,but at this point of time within 2 months to my departure , i'm so vulnerable to such ideas . really .

 i love my family , i want to be with my family in good times and in bad times .
 
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I will pray , i will pray for them